Happy Thanksgiving!

The Two Little Indians (sorry that you can't see their feathers in the back)



My Little Turkey


Our family has many reasons to be thankful this Thanksgiving compared to previous years. Like my mom has always said to me if you don't have your health you don't have nothing, which is very true. I'm so thankful for all my family and friends who have helped us deal with what we never saw coming 3 1/2 months ago. Life definitely means so much more now then it did then, which it should not come to getting a serious illness to make one realize that, not that I have always taken life for granted, but I just cherish it a little more now. I'm so thankful for modern medicine and what it has done for me to get rid of this cancer and I pray that it will stay away. I'm very blessed to have a family who has been there for us when we needed them to help out with the kids, housework, and just being there to listen and reassure that everything will get better, I'm just taking a little detour in my life right now. I'm also thankful for both Bryan and I to have employment at places that care and and appreciate all the support they have given us, that's including all of you at Coborn's in Milaca. I hope you all have had a great Thanksgiving and thank you to all who are reading this and all the support you have given our family in one way or another.

Unsuspected Thankfulness......

This is Nicole's Aunt Sandy reporting on the weekend.

Upon arriving at the Johnson home, Nicole and I engaged in a conversation about the surprising perks of having cancer. When a life threatening illness consumes every waking hour of thought and you go through the various stages of grief you begin to really open up your eyes and mind to those who surround you. She explained that she looks at people longer, making eye contact letting them know she really sees them for who they are. Also realizing that behind every face there may be unseen challenges in their lives, much like she is experiencing. She now takes time to notice the little things in life that we often overlook in our busy lives.

With chemo session #5 completed Nicole spent time this past weekend taking it easy, experiencing some nausea, upper back and neck pain, hotflashes, and fatigue. However she didn't spend as much time in the bedroom as she had with previous sessions. Her mom made sure she took her pain meds, anti nausea meds and other meds on schedule. Nicole's tumor marker test (which is the CEA-27.29) was 44.0, down from 61.9 last time. Wow at the time of diagnosis this level was 763!! The significance of Thanksgiving this year is truly realized by Nicole and all that love her.

Griffin is such a beautiful healthy boy and smiles easily. Brock carries on a conversation with you as if he were a 10 year old and his energy abounds. He readily and proudly displays his underwear designs, such as Diego and Spiderman. Potty training has been pretty much conquered, there was just a few set backs the last few months. Bryan is amazing, always catering to everyones needs and mixing in some welcomed humor.

Tom, Tangy, and Trayeton (Nicole's brother and his family) surprised us on Saturday afternoon. Grandma Linny enjoyed spending time with her 3 grandsons and celebrated the reunion of her family with some spectacular dance moves with Brock and Traeyton in the living room, what a sight!

All in all Nicole's treatment is on track. She has come a long way in a short amount of time battling this cancer and also has successfully hurdled a lot of the steps of acceptance when diagnosed with cancer. I think I'm safe to say how much we all admire Nicole's courage and attitude during this chapter in her life.
Aunt Sandy.

Nicole will post pictures that were taken this weekend when I send them to her.

Make Cancer Your.......

Well I have chemo #5 tomorrow. Can't wait to get these next two over with. It's just no fun when you start to feel good and then you have to start all over again. During this last week I have been kind of eating a lot, I told myself I'm going to enjoy food when I can. I just hope I can enjoy a Thanksgiving dinner and have an appetite and good taste buds, have to wait and see. Maybe we will have to celebrate a week later.

I will also have my bloodwork done tomorrow, and we will find out on Thursday what my tumor markers will be at. Let's pray that they are in the normal range and we can all celebrate!

If you are wondering about my title of my blog entry, I have to tell you the story about it and I hope none of you are offended. When my favorite uncle, Brian, (just a note he's all the nieces and nephews favorite uncle because at times he's just a kid himself and the winner of Best Anderson Kid for the last 5 years, I think), anyways when he found out about my diagnosis he called me said "Make Cancer Your Bitch", so I have taken his advice and making cancer my bitch. My aunt Sandy also bought me a hat that has this on it, so it has become one of my many mottos through this journey. You have to add humor and laughter to bad situations and in general to everyday life because I think it helps dealing with it.

I hope to update on Thursday with my results of my tests. And as always I appreciate all the comments, it's so nice hearing from all of you as you help me conquer this. I will try to get some recent pictures of the boys posted. Griffin is getting so big. He enjoys his big brother. It's so cute when Brock talks to Griffin, Griffin smiles and giggles, he will definitely be looking up to his older brother.

Genetic Consultation

Another week has flown by, where does the time go? I did end up staying home on Monday to rest for one more day, mother's orders. I agree though that I do need to take it easy and rest, so I won't have any set backs. I'm getting closer and closer to being done with my intense chemo treatments, only two more to go, then I will continue with the Herceptin until next August. I told Bryan that maybe for Valentines Day his wife may have some hair coming in, what a nice Valentines gift that would be for him. LOL.

I made an appointment that I thought I would never have to make this week. I will be having a genetic consultation in December. This will help in deciding what surgeries I will need done in the future. Such as having my ovaries taken out, or having a double mastectomy vs a lumpectomy. I'm sure I will not only get screened for the breast cancer genes, which is the BRCA 1 & BRCA 2, but also for other cancers, as unfortunately there seems to be a trend of cancer in my family on both sides. I joked with my mom when I received my forms that they wanted me to fill out with my family history. I have to include her aunts, uncles, grandparents, and cousins, and I told her that I only had 10 lines and I wasn't sure if that would be enough or not. It did state that an extra page could be submitted. Last year my mom was telling me about a gentleman that she met who had genetic testing done on himself because all of his family members have had cancer and I think most of them died at very early ages and he wanted to prevent it from happening to him. She suggested that I look into it at and she had a video about, I told her no thanks, I do not want to know my destiny, little did we know that the cancer was inside of me at the time.

I have my MUGA scan on Tuesday, so let's pray that my heart is still doing well, so I can continue with the Herceptin. I probably won't get my test result until my next appointment with the oncologist, which is on the 19th.

This is very long overdue, but I wanted to thank everyone that has donated to the benefit account. You are all so generous and thoughtful and we appreciate it more than words can say, it has helped out with medical bills that we did not anticipate to have, so thanks again to all of you.

It's a bird, it's a plane, it's.......

Brock as SUPERMAN and Griffin as a lion.



My Sweet Griffin


Feeling a little better today then yesterday. Still feel a little weak, achy and trying to gain back an appetite. Am I complaining too much? Smells are really getting to me this time around. I think that they bother me more now then when I was pregnant. Dairy Queen shakes seem to do the trick, not the healthiest, but they taste GOOD! Hoping to have enough strength to go to work tomorrow, but we will play it by ear.

My mom left this afternoon, she should have a good trip home with the weather being so nice. Brock and Griffin enjoyed their time with Grandma Linny. She took Brock to the park a couple of times this weekend to wear him out, but he still had energy to spare, imagine that. I sat outside with Griffin today for awhile to enjoy the fresh air, knowing these nice days won't stay around for long. Hope you all enjoy the pictures, included one with the boys and I that was taken a couple of weeks ago, we will try to get a better one sometime soon.